Howdy!
It is 8:47 PM, Sunday. I did not work on the project today, but also didn't get much of a chance to contemplate my progress. I worked on the model until 12:30 last night (this morning, actually!), and got up at 6:30 or so. (Which is why I didn't blog yesterday - leaving that for today, as has become my custom of late.) As a result I ended up taking a two-hour nap this afternoon. We went to one of our daughters' homes for dinner, and just got back, so between that and church (Stake Conference) this morning, and choir rehearsal starting at 8:00 AM, there wasn't too much "down time."
As for the goals I stated at the outset of this project - as well as this blog - I must candidly say that they don't mean anything to me at this point. I am enjoying doing the model - loving it, in fact - although it is the most challenging project I've ever undertaken. I don't know where it will lead me, but I believe I will finish it this week. I will then undertake to have it "printed" in physical form. It should be a true work of art.
I will admit, however, that I don't know where any of this will go from here. I don't wish to be evasive or fickle, but I don't really know where I'm going with respect to The Pecans or any of the other stated goals relative to a "parade of model homes," etc. I suppose it all came down to me realizing that I have no interest whatsoever in diluting what I am doing to make it palatable to the developers of The Pecans. In meeting with Lonnie McCleave several weeks ago, I found myself trying to align myself with his goals, and somehow sell him on mine, and I just realized that I had no interest whatsoever in being what he or anyone else might want me to be. I'm not an "architect" in the traditional sense of being someone trying to land a project or a job.
I just won't play that game anymore. I am not doing what I am doing in order to be accepted by anyone. I'm doing it because I love what I do (create or recreate historic architecture), and I know that it has great merit and worth to a civilized culture. Most people have no concept of that value, or make it a priority. That is fine. I will not mince words in trying to sell my ideas. I will simply do what I do, and know that the opportunity to do more and more of it will come as I continue to pursue my passion. I don't need to look for opportunities, or worry about them in any way. I just need to follow my heart, and do what I am expert in doing. I don't need anyone else's help or permission to do what I want to do.
I just need to do it . . . and that is exactly what I am doing! Between the virtual - then physical - model of the historic Rosson House, and the component (arbor) systems I will develop for Adam Seever and others, I am well on my way. I will simply continue to work on them daily, and do the other things I am called upon to do - including putting in a garden, and helping save our country - and all of my professional desires will come to pass. I am confident of that, and need not apologize to anyone for anything that I think or feel. Life is good, and I couldn't be happier with where I am going.
The key is that: to be happy with who we are, and with what we're doing. The only way to truly be so is to "just do it!" Life is good, and I am truly grateful and happy! I know who I am, and where I'm going!
Good night, all!
Tom Ballantyne - Architect/Master Builder
It is 8:47 PM, Sunday. I did not work on the project today, but also didn't get much of a chance to contemplate my progress. I worked on the model until 12:30 last night (this morning, actually!), and got up at 6:30 or so. (Which is why I didn't blog yesterday - leaving that for today, as has become my custom of late.) As a result I ended up taking a two-hour nap this afternoon. We went to one of our daughters' homes for dinner, and just got back, so between that and church (Stake Conference) this morning, and choir rehearsal starting at 8:00 AM, there wasn't too much "down time."
As for the goals I stated at the outset of this project - as well as this blog - I must candidly say that they don't mean anything to me at this point. I am enjoying doing the model - loving it, in fact - although it is the most challenging project I've ever undertaken. I don't know where it will lead me, but I believe I will finish it this week. I will then undertake to have it "printed" in physical form. It should be a true work of art.
I will admit, however, that I don't know where any of this will go from here. I don't wish to be evasive or fickle, but I don't really know where I'm going with respect to The Pecans or any of the other stated goals relative to a "parade of model homes," etc. I suppose it all came down to me realizing that I have no interest whatsoever in diluting what I am doing to make it palatable to the developers of The Pecans. In meeting with Lonnie McCleave several weeks ago, I found myself trying to align myself with his goals, and somehow sell him on mine, and I just realized that I had no interest whatsoever in being what he or anyone else might want me to be. I'm not an "architect" in the traditional sense of being someone trying to land a project or a job.
I just won't play that game anymore. I am not doing what I am doing in order to be accepted by anyone. I'm doing it because I love what I do (create or recreate historic architecture), and I know that it has great merit and worth to a civilized culture. Most people have no concept of that value, or make it a priority. That is fine. I will not mince words in trying to sell my ideas. I will simply do what I do, and know that the opportunity to do more and more of it will come as I continue to pursue my passion. I don't need to look for opportunities, or worry about them in any way. I just need to follow my heart, and do what I am expert in doing. I don't need anyone else's help or permission to do what I want to do.
I just need to do it . . . and that is exactly what I am doing! Between the virtual - then physical - model of the historic Rosson House, and the component (arbor) systems I will develop for Adam Seever and others, I am well on my way. I will simply continue to work on them daily, and do the other things I am called upon to do - including putting in a garden, and helping save our country - and all of my professional desires will come to pass. I am confident of that, and need not apologize to anyone for anything that I think or feel. Life is good, and I couldn't be happier with where I am going.
The key is that: to be happy with who we are, and with what we're doing. The only way to truly be so is to "just do it!" Life is good, and I am truly grateful and happy! I know who I am, and where I'm going!
Good night, all!
Tom Ballantyne - Architect/Master Builder
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